I know, I know. It's been nearly 2 months since I last updated this thing...life is BUSY, people. :oP
Seems like the only "me" time I have right now is when everyone else is asleep. My brain fails to let me rest, even when I know I need to rest.
I don't know if it's because my 10 year high school reunion is coming up, or the fact that we're going to the Ball State vs. Purdue football game this weekend, or what, but for one reason or another I've been reminiscing about the days of yore...and all the creative things I did or was involved in.
I was actually thinking about some of my pottery pieces I created during my stint in ceramics sometime during high school. I wonder what happened to the large vase I spent hours carving.
I've been thinking about the Latin songs I sang during the time I was a nun...in the Sound of Music production my Junior year of high school. I know it was high school, but I can help but think about how I got goosebumps whenever we hit the chords just right on Gaudeamus. (Mr. Hayden was a great conductor/director/teacher. I miss being challenged by the songs we sang.)
I keep wistfully remembering all the literally countless hours I spent swing dancing in college...and the ballroom class and country western class with Ya'akov.
I keep dreaming about a day that I could be on Dancing With The Stars - or some version where it's just regular people that no one really knows.
Yes, I know, I could go on a dance date with the hubby....but Brian's not much of a dancer... I love my hubby to pieces, but there are times I want to just dance and not have to re-train him. (Not to mention the fact that we have two kids, so we have to find a sitter anytime we want to get out on our own.)
*sigh*
I've come to realize that I don't have much of a physical or tangible creative outlet.
Years upon years of always having something - choir, art, dance, etc. - and now I have nothing really. No church choir, no worship team, no art classes, no dance classes or outings...
Kinda bums me out...and makes me get all itchy thinking about what all I used to do.
I want to sing - and not just with my daughters.
I want to dance in public.
I want to create in a way that is fulfilling to me.
I just need a means to an end...and I'm not sure where to find it.
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Do it!! Be creative to get creative and be creative. You'll find a way!! And when you do let me know, I miss singing, and creating in a fulfilling way. I tried knitting, eh. I tried making my own soap for a bit, cool, still eh. I'm not a scrap-booker, which if you want I've got pictures, and scrapbooks that need worked on... ;)
ReplyDeleteIt's hard having a creative outlet when so many hours of adult life is filled with chores, work, kiddos,and staying sane. Some days I like to doodle till I can't stand it. Just to release some creativity. I also miss the 'days of yore' for those freedoms....
Erin, I totally know how you feel. Joining Worship Team could help.
ReplyDeleteI also find the blog can be a great creative outlet - choosing the pictures, revising the writing.
And..surprisingly I like cooking as a creative outlet. Mix this with that - and what will you get?
I KNOW you like that one, too. KEep looking for little things to do. IT's important.